Thanks everyone, your kind words do make me feel better about it all, and you're absolutely right @lushell, I did need to vent! I've been discouraged and feeling this way long before the "discouraged thread" was created. That post has been a long time coming! I've come close to venting before but have never fully done it because I do understand the nature of this beast, and even though I get angry and frustrated with the majority of my results, I eventually shrug it off and keep on keepin on, obviously lol. But it's been so long since I've felt validation to keep going (as in a win, a bonus, an approved domain, etc) that it's getting hard to shrug off. It's starting to feel more like a wake up call than simply the nature of the beast.
Anyway, to answer your question, @AlwriteyThen, when things were going good for me on here I had much more free time. I have 3 kids which obviously dominate the majority of my time, but then weeks before my last win I went back to school. Since then my SH time has been drastically decreased. I went from participating in about 200 contests a month to about 40. I know this plays a part in my SH failures the last year, but it doesn't make me feel any better about all the constant rejection.
I also want to say I often see ppl giving advice to not get their feelings hurt or get so bothered by the rejection because some like our names and some don't. Much like @ALDaisy1's post. It's good advice and appreciated but I've noticed the very ppl saying these things typically win some what consistently. My point is that typically the ppl saying these things truly do have some like their names and some not, but when you typically have constant rejection (for a year) it doesn't seem as simple as you win some you lose some, some like your names and some don't. Where are my wins to support this rationale? I currently don't feel it applies to me. But I know it's from a good place and I appreciate the encouraging support and advice from y'all!!
Okay y'all, I'll shut up, I got a ton of stuff to do anyway 😞 Which unfortunately doesn't involve submersing myself in a brief, but thank you @lushell, @Marye5, @AlwriteyThen, @ALDaisy1, and @LauraE...You guys rock!! 🙂