I wasn’t going to share…but feel like I want to apologize if it seems in the last 2 months I have maybe been a little stressed or not handling changes and things so well.
I have had 2 deaths in my family in the last two months.My stepdaughter on Dec 17th…and my father in law this last week on Feb 10th.
I have to sing at his funeral today, and am wondering how I will get through it.I am filled with grief,even though I have tried to bury it these last few months,and naming has been a welcome diversion.
I probably tend to be more on the emotional side anyway…but these events have really turned me upside down,and in retrospect, affected my mood and ability to “roll with the punches” so to speak.
So thank you for your patience.I just wanted to explain what has affected me lately.I’m sorry if I have been over reactive or let things bug me too much.
I have met several super nice people on here,and I appreciate it!
Holly, you certainly have had more than your share of grief and struggle this year. Prayers of strength are with you. I am so deeply sorry for your loss
Holly, I’m so sorry to hear of your losses. Good luck today… you’re going to sound beautiful! I always appreciate your comments and questions so please don’t apologize.
No need to apologize. You have not done anything wrong. I never would have guessed you were going through so much. I’m sorry for your loss and God bless you. Sending prayers your way.
Holly, so sorry for everything you have been through. I am thinking good thoughts for you and hope you will feel a little stronger every day. I agree you have nothing to apologize for. Take care of yourself.
Thank you everyone for your thoughts and sentiments.It touched my heart. It’s been rough,but I have a lot of faith and have tried to let that carry me through these last months.
I was able to sing somehow at the funeral. I started to explain why I chose the song I did before I sang it (Over the Rainbow) but I started to cry, so I had to compose myself and say I would explain after I sang instead. I just kept telling myself that I wanted to sing it for Bodie one more time, so somehow I was able to pull myself together and do it.
When my mother in law was passing away in 2007,and in a coma from a stroke…Bodie and I sat together with her in her hospital room. She loved music, (and even though she wasn’t responsive,and I wasn’t sure if she could still hear things)…I started singing songs to her I thought she would like.When I sang “Over the Rainbow”…Bodie had tears in his eyes. So that’s why even though it was emotional for me…I wanted to “sing him home” with that song.
It is very sweet to me that even though we don’t really “know” each other,and just have a creative community we share…that so many reached out,and offered support in this difficult time for me.
So sad, Holly. Made me cry a bit. I sang to my mom all night long as she was preparing to pass. She hadn’t been responsive and she had alzhiemers. I got sooo tired during the night that I just got punch drunk. I told her that I figured she was going to die because I was singing to her!! We always laughed because we couldn’t hold a tune in a bucket and mouthed the words for hymns at church. I was very happy to see her go because she hadn’t been there for way too long. And I was honored to be the one that got to be with her - She lived a 1000 miles from me. But I caught a flight and got there at midnight. She passed at 6 A.M. I miss her so much. Your song must have been the perfect gift to give someone as they passed.
Again so sorry that you have had such struggles. The pain can feel unbearable and you still have to go through everyday things. God bless you and your family.